fifty`
yay~ fiftieth post. haha
i wanted to put more youtube embeds, but i shall not. haha.
I had a surgery this morning. To remove a blood clot up my ass. pretty painful, but guess i had to do it. Haha. and since its a surgery up my ass, the doctor can't stitch it. He cut a part of my blood vessel away, and he can't stitch the cut he made. which is about 0.3 to 0.4cm wide. haha. i'm bleeding the living shits out of myself, and i can't help but to see my blood spill. of all places, from my ass. kinda sad. but its okay.
Anyway, i will expect less from everyone from now onwards. yay. be a little more distant may help, but i'll try not to distant myself from the world. i'll end up alone in pluto waiting for pink or blue martians to feed on my degrading ass and drink my blood flowing out of my ass. (:
I'm listening to pretty nice songs. Icebox (haha thanks timyap, for introducing). I don't know whats bothering me. Something is. Maybe if i had a hint of what's bothering me, i would never, never, believe that that's what's bothering me. Such a sad case.
Its okay, i guess i shall just go to sleep, with my ass facing up, so that my bed doesn't get stained with blood.
yay.
I'll be there when your heart stops beating
I'll be there when your last breath's taken away
In the dark when there's no one listening
In the times when we both get carried awayy~
that's when your heart stops beating, friend. that's when you die. that's when its too late. HAHA
okay random. i'm just feeling kinda down for no reason, maybe because of my ass.
Sigh, anyway, tomorrow's going to be another boring day. so will the day after and the day after tomorrow be. Its a sad sad thing. haha. can't walk without feeling pain. kinda sad a thing to happen.
Anyway, i thought i should change my blog skin. i shall do it soon. soon. haha.
I'm getting really bored of everything, so shall resort to something that nobody can be bored of. haha.
nights, world.
in the dark where there's no one listening.
(:
i wanted to put more youtube embeds, but i shall not. haha.
I had a surgery this morning. To remove a blood clot up my ass. pretty painful, but guess i had to do it. Haha. and since its a surgery up my ass, the doctor can't stitch it. He cut a part of my blood vessel away, and he can't stitch the cut he made. which is about 0.3 to 0.4cm wide. haha. i'm bleeding the living shits out of myself, and i can't help but to see my blood spill. of all places, from my ass. kinda sad. but its okay.
Anyway, i will expect less from everyone from now onwards. yay. be a little more distant may help, but i'll try not to distant myself from the world. i'll end up alone in pluto waiting for pink or blue martians to feed on my degrading ass and drink my blood flowing out of my ass. (:
I'm listening to pretty nice songs. Icebox (haha thanks timyap, for introducing). I don't know whats bothering me. Something is. Maybe if i had a hint of what's bothering me, i would never, never, believe that that's what's bothering me. Such a sad case.
Its okay, i guess i shall just go to sleep, with my ass facing up, so that my bed doesn't get stained with blood.
yay.
I'll be there when your heart stops beating
I'll be there when your last breath's taken away
In the dark when there's no one listening
In the times when we both get carried awayy~
that's when your heart stops beating, friend. that's when you die. that's when its too late. HAHA
okay random. i'm just feeling kinda down for no reason, maybe because of my ass.
Sigh, anyway, tomorrow's going to be another boring day. so will the day after and the day after tomorrow be. Its a sad sad thing. haha. can't walk without feeling pain. kinda sad a thing to happen.
Anyway, i thought i should change my blog skin. i shall do it soon. soon. haha.
I'm getting really bored of everything, so shall resort to something that nobody can be bored of. haha.
nights, world.
in the dark where there's no one listening.
(: